Some of you may remember that after a lot of time I finally managed to get a copy of the social services records held about my mother and myself. Now, month’s later, they remain untouched on top of some books. Partly this is because I already know that one of the answers I am looking for is not there: the full story of what happened to my twin sister. Stupidly when I asked for the records of my mother and myself, I neglected to also ask for the records of my (unfortunately deceased) twin sister. So everything pertaining to her has been redacted from the files!
I think I may also be avoiding reading the files because I know it isn’t going to be easy for me. It is going to be upsetting, and will probably affect me quite profoundly. But I have to do it. I can’t keep putting it off.
Maybe once I’ve got over this damn cold.